I'm not sure what exactly to say today. Just when I feel like I should be feeling better and much happier, I realize that I'm as sad and down as normal.
Why is it so hard to become a happier person, who takes things in stride and enjoys working and being around people? I feel like I keep trying to overcome everything, but then I wonder am I really putting forth the effort or just saying that I am.
One minute I feel fine and then the next every thing seems like it will never get better. It is so very hard when you have someone who doesn't understand that concept, and thinks you should just be able to shurg it off. I really wish it was that easy and that I could feel like there was something that I do right.
I'm planning on going to my week long family reunion (of course the girls are going also). I have a few more things to get, but I'm so proud of the fact that I have a tent already! I have a countdown going and have been excited, but suddenly today, it just seems way too much.
